Convicted

I have been reading Forgotten God by Francis Chan and am completely convicted. I have been living my life, not bad necessarily, but not always listening to the Holy Spirit. I oftentimes take the Holy Spirit living inside of me for granted. Why do I do that? I have no idea. If I listen to the Spirit, my life would be so much easier. Why do I try to even attempt things on my own? God knows more and can lead me in such a way that I don't even know how to explain, and I know that. So why do I try to do it myself? I am not just talking about the big things, but also about the day to day life-how I phrase things to my kids today, how I phrase things to my husband today, how I spend my time today, what I choose to do with/teach my kids today, what to cook today, I could go on and on. My goal is to wake up every morning and ask God to lead me, through the Holy Spirit, to what he wants in me and my day (actually His day). I want Him to use me the way I was made to be used-by Him and not me.

"I don't want my life to be explainable without the Holy Spirit. I want people to look at my life and know that I couldn't be doing this by my own power. I want to live in such a way that I am desperate for Him to come through. That if He doesn't come through, I am screwed." -Francis Chan