I cannot even describe all of the emotions going through me right now. I am anxious, nervous, scared, excited, solemn, eager, concerned, apprehensive...I could go on and on... But through all of the roller coaster of emotions, I feel calmness and an OVERWHELMING sense of peace. I have heard the phrase "peace that passes all understanding" many many times in my life. I have never fully thought about the meaning of that before. I mean, it means what it says... To have peace that is so far beyond our understanding because it comes from above. I never will fully understand it, but for the first time in my life, I am FULLY feeling it as we go through this experience. I know with all of my heart that this peace that is indescribable comes (and can only come) from God Almighty. There is no other way I can be whole EVER without Him. I know this and have known this, but it seems to be more obvious during the hard times. God has shown Himself through this experience in so many ways already and we are only just beginning. I see Him through our loving friends who have so selflessly given and given to us in so many different ways (babysitting Bryce, cleaning our house, going to the grocery store for us, cooking us dinners, Jayden's shower and the creative gifts such as parking tokens and restaurant gift cards, the sweet blessings, taking us to the Medical Center and giving us a personal tour, those who are coming to visit in the hospital from hours away, phone calls, facebook messages, texts, comments on this blog, setting up a prayer service, the tons of prayers lifted up on our behalf-I could go on an on). I see Him in our family who are dropping everything to come be with us during this time (Lynn and Stephanie who are taking off work, Dad taking off work, Mom stopping her life to stay for as long as I need her, Dad who is going to be home alone for a while because I am stealing Mom). I cannot thank you all enough for lifting us up in this storm. I am so very thankful to God for giving me this overwhelming sense of peace.
Psalm 29:11 "The Lord gives his people strength. The Lord blesses them with peace."